Never been so hurt. Does he fucking see how worthless I feel? He couldn't. I dont think anyone is that sadistic that they would enjoy hurting someone like he hurt me. I feel so melodramatic, but I'm fucking heartbroken. I hate how I spontaneously burst into tears. But I have no control anymore. And I'm afraid of what I'll do. There's so much I could fuck up... And so much I've already fucked up. I just wanted a chance. A chance to be with him, and be so fucking happy. Why cant I have that? What have I done to deserve this heartbreak? I dont fucking know. I have been nothing but supportive for him through ALL of this. And then I get hurt. I knew I'd get hurt. Why'd I do it? Why?! I dont deserve this. I dont deserve any of this. But I love him. YOU HEAR ME?! I LOVE YOU!
Fuck this shit.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I've never been so broken.
Posted by Farrell ish a dino. at 3:07 PM
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Listen, hun. I would give so much up to see you happy. I need you to trust me. You are quite possibly the most amazing person I've ever met, and I can't stand seeing you being so harsh on yourself. I'm here for you, whenever you need me to be. I will help you if ever you need my help.
Farrell, I'm sad that our friendship kept getting put on hold because we never talked. I'm here now, and I'm talking. If you ever need someone there for you, I want you to keep me in mind. I want to see you happy, and I would do whatever it would take to see you happy. You have my word.
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