What the hell.

I don't know where all this is going, and it bothers me. I cant tell when he cares, and when he doesn't. and that BOTHERS me. I have no control in the situation, and I don't know what to do with myself... He has more control over my emotions than I do, and there is nothing I can do about it. I love him, but he doesn't see this. I might be young, but I've never felt this way, and I'd do anything to make him mine. But he cant see this because she takes up all his view. She is all he sees. I wonder if he fucking sees her engagement ring. Or her FIANCEE! Well honey, the truth is, she'll say she will leave him for you, but its not fucking happening. And I'm tired of being the runner up.
I'm tired of not having any control... But what can I do? What can I do to stop loving you?


Nothing.